You’re not alone (Identity Crisis – Epilogue)

Posted in Happiness, Identity, Individuality, Life, Relationship Help, Relationships by zombiedrew2

The focus of my writing is relationships (specifically long term relationships), and the trials and tribulations they can run into. As my thoughts on relationships have evolved I have realized that beyond the interpersonal dynamics that come to play in a relationship, everything is still built on individuals.

In relationships the whole is often greater than the sum of the parts. But at the same time a chain is only a strong as its weakest link. Cliché? Sure. But that doesn’t make it any less true. When one person is going through a difficult time, the other person needs to step up and help them. One individuals problems affect the whole relationship, and can potentially destroy it. So for the health of both the relationship and the individual, it’s very important that the members of the relationship deal with their own issues.

HealYourself

Because of that, the last few weeks I’ve taken a bit of a step back and focused more on the individual. My last two entries have been about understanding who we are, and accepting ourselves for who we are. Today’s entry finishes off that line of thought with a few additional thoughts that didn’t quite fit anywhere else.

A Perfect World?

I would like to think I came from a pretty good home. I’m sure it was better than some and worse than others, but for me it was home. Back in my high school days I had a buddy who would hang out at my place (my parents place) all the time. One day when he was over, he witnessed some sort of a family blow up. I can’t remember the details, but as with any family it could have been any number of things. I do remember what came next though. In the awkward/embarrassed silence that followed, he turned to me and said

I always thought you had the perfect family, but yours is just as screwed up as mine.

Fast forward many years, and a few months back I was talking to another friend. His family is going through some very difficult times, and he needed to vent. You know how on a hot day when you look down a road into the distance you can see the heat radiating off of it? This was kind of like that; as he talked I could almost see the pain radiating off of him. When we parted we did one of those awkward half pat man-hugs, acknowledging that something significant had just passed between us, but we weren’t quite sure what to do about it. He thanked me, and told me that he was glad we talked because it’s been weighing him down and he doesn’t really have anyone else to talk to.

These stories illustrate two very important things to me:

We tend to believe other people’s situations are better than our own. In reality, every person and every family has their own issues.
When our own issues are weighing us down, we often feel alone.

Dealing with Pain

I have always considered myself a “strong” person, and believed I could deal with anything life threw at me. I have also always been fiercely independent, taking a sense of pride in the fact that I had been able to fairly successfully navigate the waters of life on my own.

When my life took its unexpected turn a few years back, all of that was tested. I found myself in waters I couldn’t navigate and I was flailing, drowning if you will. I was a basket case, and from day to day I had no idea how to cope. It was a difficult time, and thinking back what stands out the most is how alone I felt.

I knew I had people who I could turn to, but I didn’t even want to talk to my closest friends and family. I didn’t want to tell them what was going on. I was embarrassed by it. To tell people would be to admit it – to admit that I was a failure. So instead I tried to pretend nothing was happening. I got up every day and got ready for work. But now in addition to putting on my clothes I had to put on my fake smile, while inside of me everything felt broken.

Sharing Your Story

The first person I opened up to was my brother. He will probably always see me as the annoying little brother, but to me he’s always been an easy person to talk to and I’ve always known he would be there if I ever needed him. One of the things I remember from those early conversations is him telling me to make sure I had my support net – people I could talk to.

One of the next people I talked to was a close buddy. I felt guilty “dumping my issues” on him because I knew he was dealing with some fairly serious issues of his own. But something interesting happened. Although our situations were different, he could relate to everything I felt. All the emotions I was going through were things that he had gone through as well. And my opening up to him allowed him to open up to me as well. We talked, we laughed and we cried. But that opening up and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable was cathartic. And I would like to think it helped both of us.

Over time I opened up to more people and I was surprised by how common my story was, and by how many people were going through similar issues. One guy’s wife left him just after their first child was born because she found the role of wife and mother wasn’t quite what she expected and she wanted “to be free”, another guy found out his wife was having an affair after many years of marriage, and yet another was living in a marriage where he and his wife were nothing more than roommates anymore. The stories were different, but the pain was the same. So was the sense of isolation and the feeling of failure.

Knowing that other people were going through similar things didn’t change my situation, but it made me realize I wasn’t alone. And somehow that helped.

Struggling to Cope

About a year ago a co-worker killed himself, and it sent a wave of shock through my company. Suicide? The guy in question had always seemed so positive and happy. How could this happen? That got me wondering if he had also been getting dressed every morning and then putting on a smile, hiding the turmoil inside.

I didn’t know him well, and I don’t know what his support net was like. Maybe if there were more people he had been able to open up to, he would still be here today.

Suicide is pretty extreme, and I won’t pretend to know the specifics of his case. But I will say that everyone has their own ways of coping with things. Usually those approaches work for us and we are able to “get by”. But sometimes we face situations or issues where our coping mechanisms are no longer sufficient, and we don’t know what to do.

I’m guessing this is how a lot of addictions start, as they are ways to numb ourselves to the situations that we are facing. And this is also probably where mental health issues start to arise. I’m not a doctor, but from what I understand mental health issues often arise due to a traumatic event or prolonged periods of stress causing brain chemistry to change slightly, altering the way someone perceives the world.

When I was younger I would hear stories of people “snapping”, and having some sort of mental breakdown or psychotic episode. The person in question was always referred to as “going crazy”. The things that make the news are always the extreme cases, but like everything else it can happen to varying degrees.

We are all Damaged

Look around at the people you see on a day to day basis – your co-workers, friends, classmates, even your family. How well do you really know them? If you think back to my gemstone analogy, we only see certain aspects of people.

We choose which parts of ourselves we present to the outside world, and it stands to reason that the parts we show are the ones we are least likely to fear being judged on. Statistically speaking, some of the people you talk to every day are struggling with very real issues. Alcoholism, drug abuse, gambling problems, serious illness (both physical and mental) to themselves or a loved one, failing marriages…

…the list goes on. It is probably happening right in front of you, and you don’t see it. They come to work every day, putting on their smiles, and trying to mask the pain they feel inside.

Even for your closest friends and family, you may know them well but do you really know the intimate details of their lives? You may know their job, but do you know how much money they make? You see the material things that are on display like their clothes, their cars and their homes. But do you know what their level of debt is? You may see how they interact with their spouses in public, but does that really tell you how happy they are in their marriage? Sometimes people hear about a couple splitting up and it comes as a complete shock. Sometimes the first thought is “I thought they were happy together”. Even with our closest friends and family, we still choose which parts of our story we want to reveal.

In reality, we are ALL damaged in one way or another. All the people you see on a day to day basis have their own flaws and issues. Everyone has problems. Every relationship has problems.

And you know what? That’s okay. It doesn’t make us any better or worse than anyone else, it just makes us human.

There is a crack in everything.
That’s how the light gets in. – Leonard Cohen

Don’t Compare!!!

Going back to my buddy at the beginning, he knew all the details of his family but had a limited view of my family. Comparing them, he thought we were “perfect”.

It’s a difficult thing to do, but try not to compare yourself to others. Because really, it’s impossible to do an accurate comparison. You know all the details of your own life, but you don’t know the details of anyone else’s. Chances are some parts of their lives are better than yours, and other parts are worse. Everyone has problems. Perfection doesn’t exist.

It is especially damaging to compare relationships. You don’t know the details of someone else’s life. Chances are, it has problems too. Instead of focusing on what you are missing, it’s better to focus on what you can do to improve things.

Another common problem is comparing your current relationship to a previous one. There may be some things that were better before, but how much time has passed? Are you the same person you were then? Did you have the same responsibilities then that you do now?

If you are ever making comparisons about your life or your relationships to look at what is wrong, or missing, you are doing yourself and your relationship a great disservice. No good can ever come of it. You need to judge your situation on its own merits.

Look for the Positive

Accept that there will always be issues, and that life will always have disappointments. It’s easy for the “bad times” to overshadow the good, but instead of focusing on the negative focus on what is good in your life.

Remember that you aren’t alone. Everyone has issues, everyone has problems. I haven’t read the book “The Happiness Project” (it’s on my to-do list), but from what I know of it, it mirrors my personal philosophies. Happiness is a choice. Perhaps you can’t “make yourself be happy”, but at the very least you can influence your level of happiness by how you approach life.

Look for the positive in things. Instead of focusing on what is wrong, look at all the good around you. Take time out every day to appreciate what you have instead of focusing on what you don’t. Accept that problems and issues are normal, and that’s alright. Problems are simply opportunities for improvement.

If you have been set in a negative mind-set this sort of change isn’t easy, but it is possible. Make it part of your everyday life. It will feel forced at first, but over time it will become natural.

Identity Crisis Recap

As individuals we are all seeking happiness, fulfillment and belonging. We are social creatures, and it is through our relationships that we find these things.

We are constantly juggling many roles though, and sometimes it can feel overwhelming and we can feel lost. I’ve talked to many people who have spoken of how they lost their identity in their relationship/marriage. Or more accurately, they allowed their relationship to define their identity.

Your relationship should be important to you. I would argue that it, and the person you are choosing to be with should be the most important thing in your life. But they should never be the only thing. We are complex, and have many interests and needs. Always take time away from your spouse to pursue other interests. That time away is just as important for nurturing your relationship as the time you spend together.

Commit yourself fully to your relationship, body, mind and soul. Never hold back. This opening up and allowing yourself to be vulnerable allows you to maximize the satisfaction you can get out of the relationship. Yes, you will get hurt sometimes. But you will also be open to a level of connection that can’t be achieved if you build up walls to “protect yourself”.

In order to commit yourself fully to a relationship, you must first love yourself. Stop trying to play a role. No one is perfect, and that’s alright. You need to accept yourself as you are, and be able to say “I can always improve, but I am enough”.

Don’t compare yourself and your situations to others. Everyone has problems and everyone has issues. It’s part of what makes us human. In order to be happy, it’s important to focus on the positive and not the negative. Even problems are simply opportunities for improvement.

Lastly, when times are tough remember that you aren’t alone. Don’t be embarrassed to reach out and ask for help. Vulnerability isn’t a sign of weakness.

23Jul2014

Accepting who you are (Identity Crisis pt. 2)

Posted in Happiness, Individuality, Life, Lifestyle, Love, Relationship Help, Relationships by zombiedrew2

In the past few years I’ve read a lot of different relationship books, and most of them are psychology books. They tend to be factual and talk about the way people work, the way relationships work, positive and negative actions etc. They usually have quite a bit of valuable content, but honestly? Most of them are pretty damned boring to read.

Every relationship is different, so I don’t believe there is a “one size fits all” solution to relationship issues. So when reading something my approach has always been to see if anything resonates with me. If so, I try and adopt it. If not, I ignore it. A lot of the content in relationship books is just common sense – things that seem obvious. “be kind to your spouse”, “don’t sleep with other people” kind of stuff. But although obvious, they do talk about many traps that are easy to fall into if you aren’t careful. So sometimes getting a reminder of that “common sense” is beneficial.

The Gifts of Imperfection

Recently someone recommended I read “The Gifts of Imperfection” by Brené Brown. I knew a little bit about what it was about, but I was still expecting more of the same old dry psychology texts with case studies. I ordered it online, and when it showed up I was a bit alarmed to see a “featured by Oprah” sticker on the cover.

Now, I don’t think I’ve ever even seen a full episode of Oprah. The only time I ever see daytime television is at the dentist’s office and the daytime television of choice there seems to be Springer or Dr. Phil (which is surprisingly entertaining).

Even if Oprah was on, usually I’m only half paying attention. It’s kind of hard to focus over the sound of the drill, polisher or questions/commentary from the dentist (side note – why do dentists talk to you while they work? Their freaking hands are in your mouth – It’s not as if you can respond!!!)

Anyhow, although I’ve never watched Oprah I have this image of her stuff as being all new age touchy-feely. Sure I spend a lot of time thinking and writing about relationships, and I’m relatively in tune with my emotions. But I’m still a guy. When I see a nail, I look for a hammer. I’m not sure if new age is really my thing.

But I bought the book, so I started reading. It opened with the following:

Wholehearted living is about engaging in our lives from a place of worthiness. It means cultivating the courage, compassion, and connection to wake up in the morning and think, No matter what gets done and how much is left undone, I am enough. It’s going to bed at night thinking, Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid but that doesn’t change the truth that I am worthy of love and belonging.

Wholehearted living is not a onetime choice. It is a process. In fact I believe it’s the journey of a lifetime.

I mentioned earlier that when I read something, I see if anything resonates with me. And I’ve gotta say, that opener hit home. I didn’t just read it, I felt it.

If you’ve read any of my prior posts you will know that I believe life is all about choice. Your outlook on life is up to you. Happiness is a choice that you make. Even love is a choice. Situations and problems don’t resolve themselves – we choose what actions we take (and doing nothing at all is also a choice). So that opening really spoke to me.

This wasn’t like most of the books I had read. And honestly, it wasn’t even a relationship book. It wasn’t all about facts, instead it was full of big ideas.

I’m Worthy Now

One of the keys of the book was the idea that we as people are worthy of love and acceptance today. Right now. Many people believe they are only worthy under certain conditions: If they could get a better job, if they could lose 10 lbs, if they could gain the approval of their parents, if they could…

…well, you get the idea. If maybe our situation was different, or we were something other than what we are right now. Part of it may be fear – oh I can’t do this because… But another part of it is that people often don’t feel they are “enough” and they think they need to be something more.

The message was that you need to accept yourself as you are and believe in yourself. You need to accept that although the person you are isn’t perfect, you are enough. Embrace yourself and accept yourself for who you are. That’s not to say we shouldn’t all strive for self improvement. But we should be accepted for who we are and not feel we need to fit some mold.

Perfection Doesn’t Exist

One of my mantras is that perfection doesn’t exist – it’s an ideal for us to strive towards. And I’ve always thought perfectionism was striving towards that ideal. Brené Brown has a different take though, and she sees perfectionism as a bad thing. According to her:

Perfectionism is not about achievement and growth. Perfectionism is the belief that if we live perfectly, look perfectly and act perfectly, we can avoid the pain of blame, judgment and shame.

Healthy striving focuses on you. It occurs when you ask yourself, “How can I improve?” Perfectionism keeps the focus on others. It occurs when you ask, “What will they think?”

This had never occurred to me, but I think it makes sense. A healthy approach to problems is that they are opportunities for improvement. But I’ve seen cases where people get really upset when one little thing goes wrong. Something may be going 98% right, and instead of appreciating how well things have gone I have seen people who place what appears to be an irrational focus on the 2% that went wrong.

Numbing Behaviors

In our search for worthiness, people have things they turn to when times are tough. Escapes that allow them to take the edge off any pain they may be feeling. The book talks about numbing behaviors, and defines them as any actions people take to avoid experiencing the pain of feeling unworthy. Addictions are the most common things people would think of as numbing behaviors, and they can be drugs, alcohol, gambling etc. But really, anything can be a numbing behavior. Books, TV, the internet, Facebook, video games, even exercise.

Everyone has their own outlets, their own escapes. Any of these escapes can become an addiction when someone turns to these behaviors frequently and compulsively. That makes sense, but here’s the part that I really thought was interesting. She goes on to state:

We cannot selectively numb emotions. When we numb the painful emotions, we also number the positive emotions.

So when we turn to something to try and escape the lows points in life, at the same time we are dulling the enjoyment we can have, and limiting the high points in life.

Loving Yourself

Suffice to say, I enjoyed the book and thought it presented some really interesting ideas. The book was largely about learning to love yourself. In order to do that it says we need to:

Practice letting go of who we think we’re supposed to be and embracing who we are. Embracing who we are means accepting that we are not perfect, loving ourselves for who we are

I think that self love and accepting who you are is very important. And the importance of it can be seen when you look at how it impacts us in relationships.

At one point in the book the question is raised – can you love others more than you can love yourself? Brené Brown never conclusively answers that question (she has some arguments for and against), but here’s my take on it:

I believe that to feel loved we need to believe we are accepted for who we are. But if you go back to the gemstone idea from my last entry, it’s not easy to say who we really are. We are a lot of different things. In that entry I mentioned that the people who are closest to us are able to see the most of us, and our spouse should be the person who is closest to seeing the whole person. Everyone holds back to some degree though. We all have parts of ourselves that we are embarrassed of or ashamed about, and we try to hold those back even from those closest to us.

Here’s the problem – if we don’t love ourselves we are liable to hold more of ourselves back from the relationship. This is kind of like the numbing behaviors from the book. If we try to numb the pain, we also numb the positive emotions. As we hold back from our relationship for whatever reason (maybe we are scared to not be accepted or we are scared to fail), then we are also limiting the happiness that we can potentially have in that relationship.

What we get out of our relationships is directly proportional to what we put in. So for the greatest level of fulfillment we need to commit ourselves fully, body and mind to the relationship. But in order to fully vest ourselves in the relationship, we first need to be able to look in the mirror and be happy with what we see. And that’s not always easy.

So today’s advice to anyone out there is quite simply, love yourself. Love yourself and accepting yourself for who you are, and work on loving yourself every single day. Accepting yourself for who you are isn’t the same as resignation that you can never change. It doesn’t mean you can’t improve the things that you aren’t happy about. But it does mean that you don’t believe you need to change those things in order to be happy.

9Jul2014

Identity Crisis

Posted in Happiness, Individuality, Life, Lifestyle, Love, Relationships by zombiedrew2

Have you ever felt lost, and wondered “who you really are?” I suspect all of us have an identity crisis at one point in time or another, a time in your life that you feel lost and are searching for “you”.

In many ways that’s what a mid-life crisis is. You hit a point that you realize “hey, I’m getting older here” and you question where you are in life, and the decisions that led you there. Some people are largely at peace with the choices they have made and the life they have built, so it doesn’t hit them very hard. Other people look at where they are and wish life came with a rewind button.

It can happen to anyone, at any point in time and it doesn’t matter how old you are. You can be closing in on retirement and still have days when you ask yourself what you really want to be when you grow up.

How do we find ourselves in these spots? How do we lose sight of who we are?

Playing Roles

A lot of it comes down to roles. Think of the different roles we play. We all take on a number of roles in our lives and these roles change and evolve along with us.

For family roles at first we are a child, sibling, grandchild, nephew or niece. Over time we may become a spouse, parent, son or daughter in law. To our spouses we are a friend, support, confidant and a lover.

If you are a parent, think of all the roles you play just with your children. You are a caregiver, teacher, friend, disciplinarian (both judge and jury). These roles can sometimes conflict too. You want to be a friend to your children, but when it’s time to be a disciplinarian that needs to trump the friendship.

I’m not trying to give an exhaustive list, but the point is that we are a lot of different things and different people see us in different ways.

If my parents look at me, they see the child that I will always be to them. I’ve been on my own now for longer than I lived with my parents; but although they know I am an adult and a parent to my own children, I am first and foremost their child and they will always see me that way.

Beyond these types of social roles, we develop different interests that in turn become roles for us. We become a musician, a dancer, an artist, an athlete. Even though we may not follow these things as a career we all have aspects of all of these within us (no matter what our aptitude for them is).

When we are younger, we probably dabble in a bit of everything while trying to find ourselves. Some people find their “calling”, other never do. Only a lucky few are able to base their careers off the things that truly interest them. Most of us continue to dabble in our interests on the side, while many of us stop working on that part of ourselves completely.

We play all these roles, and each of them comes with their own fears and insecurities. For example, it’s not really accurate to say that someone is a confident person. Maybe they are confident as an athlete, but terrified as a public speaker.

Gemstones

I was talking to a buddy about all these different roles we play and what they mean to who we really are, and he came up with a great analogy. His idea was that people are like cut gemstones (I’m not sure if it was really HIS idea, but it was the first time I heard it).

Think of a cut gemstone:

Cut Gemstone Cross-Section

People are like this. We have all these different faces or surfaces – and the different surfaces represent different aspects of us. The roles we play, our interests, the sides of our personalities etc.

In our lives we encounter all sorts of different people, and each of those people only sees a part of us – a few aspects of us at a time. They are still “seeing us”, but they don’t see ALL of us. As the picture shows, a person can look different depending on which sides of them you are able to see.

The closer a person gets to you, the more of you they are able to see (which technically would be backwards for the gemstone analogy, but I’ll ignore that for now). Acquaintances only see a few aspects of you, while your closest friends will get to see more sides of you.

Depending on how much you are able to open up to other people, it’s possible that no one ever sees all of you. But you are still all of these different aspects (some of which may even conflict). To me this analogy really works.

So who is the “real” you? Is the real you the person your parents see? The one your children see? Your co-workers? Your friends? All of them are the real you – they are just different aspects of you.

What does this mean for relationships, and specifically for spousal relationships? There are two important things to take away from this.

Your spouse should be your best friend

First, your significant other should be the person who is closest to seeing the whole you. Interestingly, there may be a difference between men and women in this though. Many studies have shown that when asked who their best friend is, men are most likely to say their wives. Women on the other hand are most likely to name another female friend. As a guy, I buy into the notion that your spouse should be your best friend. They are the person you will hopefully spend the rest of your life with.

My dream is to grow old with my wife, and be able to walk hand in hand with her, laughing and loving one another each step of the way. Without being best friends I don’t see how that can happen.

You still need to be You

A while back I had a post that talked about the idea of a marriage box. The idea was that some people expect marriage to come with everything they need while in reality to you need to continue to grow and nurture your relationship. Just as some people expect marriage to give them everything they need, some people go into relationships expecting their spouse to be everything to them.

You hear stories all the time about people who start a relationship and then drop their friends. Their lives and their sense of identity become completely wrapped up in the marriage and in the other person. This is not a healthy approach to marriage.

Think of the gemstone analogy, people are complex and have many facets. The romantic notion of “you complete me” is somewhat true. Couples should be similar in some ways and complement each other in others. But no one person can meet all the different complex and conflicting needs – and we shouldn’t want them to.

Ever if one person could meet all of your needs it wouldn’t be healthy. Time apart and time with other friends is important to a relationship.

Here’s a quote I found (at this site) that I love:

As you give up those things you find fulfilling and important for the sake of the relationship, this places a tremendous burden on your spouse to fill the void of whatever you gave up. And this burden will create neediness and dependency, as well as resentment and boredom.

Every marriage needs space between the spouses. It is within this space that you find energy, passion, eroticism, quiet time, and personal fulfillment.

Balancing the “we” with the “me”

One place I disagree with the guy who wrote the above quote is that in the full article he says your spouse should not be your best friend, as he believes it’s damaging to the relationship. I believe your spouse “should” be your best friend, but they shouldn’t be your only friend.

While embracing being part of a couple (the “we”) it’s important not to lose sight of yourself (the “me”). This last part is where the struggle comes in. The things you did before you and your spouse met shouldn’t stop. They may not happen as often as you are now fitting someone new into your life, but they are part of what made you who you are. Giving that up is not only a disservice to yourself, but also to the long term health of your relationship (well, unless one your things was sleeping around, then ya it probably needs to stop).

Let’s say you love football and your spouse doesn’t. That’s fine – they don’t have to. It’s great if they show some interest in it, and maybe you will occasionally go to or watch a game with them. Your spouse showing an interest in football is really them showing an interest in you, and wanting to share things with you. But if you had friends that you watched football with before, that shouldn’t go away. And you shouldn’t feel like you need to bring your spouse all the time.

It’s important to find things that you can do together as a couple. And it is good to support your spouse in their interests that you don’t share. You need to find a way to balance “you” as an individual with “you” as part of a couple.

Remember though that time apart isn’t really time to be “you”. You are still you when you are with your spouse. Rather time apart is an outlet for different aspects of you. And this is needed in order for you to have the happiness and fulfillment required to allow your relationship to thrive.

30Jun2014

Hmm, a hot-dog stand…

Posted in Happiness, Life, Love, Relationships by zombiedrew2

I was talking with a buddy recently and the topic of marriage came up. He’s a young guy, in his late 20’s and is in a fairly new relationship. I can’t even recall how the topic of marriage came up, but we were talking about how marriage is supposed to be a lifetime commitment, and he wasn’t sure about that side of it. What he said about commitment really stuck with me. He said:

I don’t know man, forever is a long time. It’s like pizza. I love pizza, and I could happily eat it every day. But you know what? Sometimes I’ll be walking by a hot-dog stand and I’ll be thinking I could really go for a hot-dog right now. It doesn’t mean I like pizza any less, but sometimes that hot-dog looks really good.

We had a good laugh about it, and I have to admit the sight of a hot-dog stand now brings a smile to my face.

Today’s entry isn’t about sex, or infidelity (both are topics for another day). Rather it’s about the idea that committing to a lifetime of pizza is a sacrifice, except of course I’m not really talking about pizza.

*** Side note – as a heterosexual male the imagery of craving a hot dog once in a while instead of pizza doesn’t quite sit right. I can’t really think of any foods that look like female genitalia though, so maybe a melon stand instead? That doesn’t quite work as I can’t say that I really see many melon stands around. If I lived in Florida maybe, but I don’t.
Sigh.
Oh well, it was my buddies analogy anyhow and I’m just rolling with it.

Living in dreamland

We never got into the specifics of his concerns, but on the surface it seemed my buddy was talking about sex. I mean, he is a guy in his late 20’s – so a pretty high percentage of his conscious thought process likely revolves around sex. But is that really what it’s about?

Let’s say you’re in a long term relationship with someone. Now let’s say you notice someone else (you’re walking by the hot-dog stand). I get noticing the other person, sure. You may think to yourself – damn, he/she is hot. And sure, your mind may wander into the realm of fantasy, I get that too.

I’m not sure how your relationship “restricts you”. Does it restrict you from noticing and appreciating other people? No, of course not. Being in a relationship doesn’t mean you’re dead. Just because you notice someone else doesn’t mean that you find your spouse any less desirable or love them any less.

*** Side note 2 – I’m not suggesting that you gawk or anything, and it’s probably not a good idea to say “Honey, did you see the body on her? DAAAAAAMMMMNNNN!!!!”. Be respectful.

The only thing your relationship really restricts you from doing is going and messing around with another person. Is that really such a terrible thing? It’s not as if all the beautiful people you see day to day look at you and are immediately overcome with desire for you, and then proposition you for sex.
Maybe that happens in TV and movies, but it sure hasn’t been my experience in life (I suppose it could just be me though).

*** Side note 3 – This may be just a male/female difference. I’ve often believed that if a guy goes to a bar looking for sex, he may or may not find it. If a girl does to a bar looking for sex she will have a lineup out the door and around the building, and it doesn’t matter how nice she is or what she looks like. Sorry ladies, it doesn’t actually mean the guy gives a crap about you. We’re just wired differently.

Even if life did involve a trail of beautiful people chasing after you propositioning you for sex, so what? If you take them up on it would that really make you happier? Would that make you feel less restricted by a relationship? While acknowledging that this has never happened to me, I have my doubts.

The real issue here is that some people feel threatened by commitment because they perceive it as representing a loss of freedom.

Loss of freedom

Do relationships really restrict someone’s freedom? Yeah of course they do. The question becomes what is it restricting you from and is that really a bad thing? The way I see it a relationship restricts you from starting another relationship with someone else at the same time, or from engaging in casual sex on the side. Beyond that, a relationship means that you need to make time in your life for another person, and take them into consideration in the decisions you make. You can’t just focus on “you” all the time.

Ask yourself, is anyone truly “free”? No, there are restrictions on freedom everywhere. That what laws are about – they put parameters on behaviors that are acceptable within society. No one is truly free. You may have the freedom to do what you want, but it comes with consequences.

If I walk into a store and take what I want without paying for it I get arrested. If I don’t show up to work because I don’t feel like it, I may lose my job. If I don’t pay my mortgage the bank will take my house. Everything I do is a decision, and decisions have consequences.

*** side note 4 – There are extremes where relationships do involve a loss of freedom. You see stories of relationships where one person (usually the guy sadly) controls all aspects of the other persons life. What they wear, what they can do, etc. That kind of loss of freedom is abuse, and bad news.

Being part of a team

Have you ever heard that saying that “work isn’t work when you love what you are doing”? I feel the same way about the sacrifices involved in a relationship. Sure you lose a bit of freedom, and you can’t just do whatever you want anymore (not that you ever truly could).

These “restrictions” a relationship puts on you are also one of the strength of a relationship. Guess what, your life isn’t just about you!!! You have gone from being solely a “me” to being part of a “we”. Sure there are things you give up, but what you get in return more than outweighs what you lose.

There’s a sense of fulfillment and a sense of belonging. Knowing that you have someone who you can count on, and knowing the same person can count on you. Being able to look forward to a future with someone, knowing that no matter what life throws at you, you will always be committed to each other. Being able to work towards goal together and support each other in those goals that you don’t share.

Instead of viewing a committed relationship as restrictive, I think of it as freeing. Life isn’t just about what is in it for you, it’s also about what you are able to give. And how better to give, than to share your life with another person.

24Jun2014

Till death do us part?

Posted in Communication Issues, Happiness, Love, Marriage, Relationships by zombiedrew2

In a post about marriage, I mentioned that I see marriage as a way of symbolizing the commitment between two people.

I’m a big proponent of marriage. I love the notion of knowing that you want to share your life with someone, and that no matter what life throws at you, you will always be there to support the other person and that you in turn can count on them to support you. This sense of commitment is at the heart of what allows you to be more than just two individuals. So what exactly is commitment?

People buy starter cars, and starter houses. But I would like to think that everyone goes into their marriage with the hope and the expectation that it will last. I’m not sure about all cultures, but part of the marriage ceremony is usually reciting vows that represent an affirmation of the love and commitment the couple has for each other. The vows are usually something like:

In sickness and in health,
in good times and in bad,
till death do us part.

Those are some pretty significant words, and in the excitement of the moment people probably don’t really think about what they are agreeing to. Lets take a look at those lines:

In sickness and in health. This one seems easy enough, though some sicknesses can take a big emotional toll on people and relationships. Even still, most would agree that walking out of your marriage because your spouse is sick is pretty despicable (things like alcoholism and mental illness complicate this a bit).

In good times and in bad. This is a real tough one, and really illustrates to me that the marriage has to become about more than just two people. Let’s face it, you ARE going to have bad times. You are going to have times that you hurt each other, and times that you really don’t like each other. At those times love can seem tenuous, and it’s at those times that your commitment to one another will be tested the most.

Till death do us part. It may seem silly, but to me this is the dream. To know that it doesn’t matter what life throws at you, nothing will be able to get between you and keep you apart. Until you get to those bad times though, you don’t realize that the level of commitment required to make that happen is staggering.

Let’s say most people get married between 25 and 35, and the average life expectancy for men is around 80. That’s around 50 years for a marriage to stay together in order to hit “till death do us part”. People change, so that commitment needs to be there.

The Grass is Greener?

A while back I went for lunch with a female friend of mine who has been married for a number of years (probably 7 or 8). As we were talking, it came up that she’s a bit unsure about their future. She told me she loves him, but she’s spent time wondering if this was it, if this was as good as it got. She wonders if maybe there was someone else out there who she could be happier with.

It didn’t sound like she was overly dissatisfied, and she made it clear to me that she wasn’t looking for anyone else. But at the same time, she wondered. And from talking with some of her girlfriends, she found that she had other friends who were thinking through the same things. She told me that she was open with her husband about her misgivings, and it frustrated him (well, yeah!!!).

I have to admit, I was shocked. Here was someone I had known for years, who I’ve always believed had a good head on her shoulders. But the way she was talking she had some ambivalence towards her marriage.

Now I don’t know her husband well, but I’ve met the guy a few times. And between my impressions and the things she would tell me about him he seems like a pretty good guy. So of course I started to look at it the way most guys do – as a problem that maybe can be fixed.

I asked her some questions. Were there issues between them? No, not really. Was there anything wrong with him? Again, no. She couldn’t really articulate what was missing, she just had this sense that maybe there was something more out there.

Off to the gym…

Thinking of that conversation made me think of the gym. Bear with me a moment and hopefully this will make sense…

Have you ever had a gym membership? If not, have you ever bought a piece of exercise equipment for your home (same ideas apply)? Many people get a membership and at first they use it quite regularly. But after a while the novelty of going to the gym wears off and it’s not used as frequently. Things like work, kids, or just life in general start to get in the way. It gets harder to make it to the gym, and it seems like there just isn’t enough time.

After a while, people realize that they’re barely using the membership. They may look at it occasionally and feel guilty, knowing they *should* be using it. Once they’ve gotten out of the habit of using it, it becomes hard to motivate yourself to get back. Periodically they will make use of it, but once they’ve let it drop in priority the same effort isn’t there. They may still use it, but they are just kind of going through the motions.

Some people hold onto the membership anyhow, telling themselves that they will get back one of these days. Others realize that they won’t get back, and they cancel the membership.

Believe me, if you attend a gym regularly you see this cycle play out frequently. After a while you get to know who the regulars are and who the drop-ins are. Usually at new years the gym will get a rash of new people, but within a few weeks the numbers start to drop. Some drop quickly, others last a bit longer. In fairness, some do to stick it out and become new regulars.

The exact same thing happens in relationships. The success of a relationship really comes down to commitment. What you get out of a relationship is completely dependent on what you put into it.

You only get out what you put in

Thinking of the traditional marriage vows (listed above), I realize that they are missing something important. They really just talk about staying in the marriage under all circumstances (sickness, health, good times and bad), and that is part of it. But is commitment really just about staying in the marriage? Just because you haven’t physically left a marriage, does that mean you have kept your vows? No. Just like going to the gym and going through the motions won’t help you get stronger or lose weight, staying in a marriage doesn’t mean you are committed. Commitment is about what you put in.

Take a look at this:

I love this concept of a “Marriage Box”, and to me it sums up everything about what it means to be committed to a marriage. I used to think the commitment was only about a refusal to give up. But the more I look at it I realize that commitment is not just about what it takes for someone to walk away from something, but it’s about what someone is willing to put in. It’s about not just worrying about yourself, but also dedicating yourself to you spouses welfare and happiness.

Self fulfilling prophecy

In the book “Love is Never Enough”, Dr. Beck gives examples of some of the couples he’s worked with. In one of the examples (starting on pg 221 if you’re interested) he describes a woman who had a negative image of relationships from her parents. She married, but for fear of getting hurt she never truly committed herself to the marriage. She held back, and was constantly looking for flaws in her husband as these gave her rationalizations for not fully committing herself to the marriage.

The problem is, by not fully committing she also caused considerable tension in the relationship. Her efforts to protect herself from potentially being hurt put her on the path to destroying the very relationship that she was scared of being hurt by.

Thinking of my friend, I wonder if there is something similar happening. Has she really committed herself to the relationship she has with her husband? I don’t know her situation, but she could take the time she spends thinking about what “could be out there” and focus it on making her relationship the best it can be.

The example from the book does seem to have a happy ending though, and I think it’s one we can all learn from. As the wife started to focus on the positives in her marriage she was able to commit herself to it more. As she gave more of herself, she ended up receiving more in return as her husband was more loving and attentive. Her relationship strengthened, and she found that as she put more of her heart into it, her relationship became more fulfilling.

The power of positive thinking

If you read my post on happiness, you know that I’m a big believer in the power of positive thinking, and I believe that it’s a key to happiness. Focusing on what you have instead of what’s missing will give you a greater appreciation of the things you do have.

When it comes to relationships I can guarantee that for anyone, in any relationship, there IS someone else out there that you *could* be happier with. But so what?

Perfection doesn’t exist, it’s an ideal. No relationship is perfect. Short of any deal-breakers (infidelity and abuse being common ones for people), what you have today can probably get better if you and your spouse commit yourselves to the relationships and each other. Embrace what you have and see imperfections as ways to improve.

I opened with talking about wedding vows. With current divorce rates the traditional vows may as well be:

As long as I feel like it,
And it’s convenient for me,
Till something better comes along

Get out of that mindset. Ask yourself what you can do, today, to make your relationship better. Recommit yourself to your spouse and your relationship, and embrace a happier future.

16Jun2014

It’s Time for a Check Up!!!

Posted in Communication, Communication Issues, Happiness, Marriage, Relationships by zombiedrew2

When it comes to going to see the doctor, what kind of person are you? Some people go see the doctor every time they sneeze. Others go for regular check-ups. And then there are others who will only go long after they should have. Think the Black Knight from Monty Python and the Holy Grail – “it’s just a flesh wound” (ah, that scene NEVER gets old for me). People are all over the spectrum with how often they see a doctor. Personally, I’m not quite at the black knight level, but I know I don’t go as often as I should.

Why do people go for check-ups? Well, as the saying goes “an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure”. Kind of like my buddy who had the heart attack. Had he gone to the doctor when he first experiences symptoms, he might have been able to prevent the heart attack. Or at least reduce the pain involved in having it. The prescribed “regular checkups” are really just checkpoints on your overall health. They are a way for doctors to see how you are doing year after year, and check if there are any signs of trouble on the horizon.

Checkpoints

We see these checkpoints at a number of spots in life. Most jobs do yearly performance reviews. These are really ways of checking in to see how we are doing. Ways to examine what we are doing well, and what we can improve upon.

Financial people often recommend that we meet with them annually or bi-annually, to see both how we are currently doing as well as to find out if anything in our lives has changed that would affect what we should do moving forward.

In the business world, projects often have a phase called “lessons learned”. The idea in the lessons learned phase is that we look at what worked, and what didn’t in a project. That way if we ever undertake a similar task, we can try to build on our experiences and avoid making the same mistake again. So we can improve for next time.

Heck, in some ways that’s what New Year’s Resolutions are about. The New Year becomes a checkpoint for setting goals that we want to accomplish in the coming year.

The Golf Ball Game

Recently I went to a business conference on problem solving and continuous improvement. We opened the conference by breaking into teams of 10-15, and playing a game. In the game each team received a bucket of golf balls. We had to see how many points we could score, and to score a point we had to follow a few basic rules. We scored one point for each golf ball that passed through the team. The rules were:

Each member of the team must touch the ball at least once
You are not allowed to pass the ball to the person directly next to you
The last person in the team must pass the ball to the first person on the team to complete a circuit
The ball must be airborne during each pass

We were given 2 minutes to come up with a plan and 2 minutes to try out our plan, after which each team then gave the convener their scores. We then had 2 minutes to revise our plan, 2 mins to try out the new plan, and provide score updates. I think we repeated this process 2 more times (for a total of 4 attempts). The first time we did this, I think we passed 16 balls around the group. By the last pass, we were around 200.

For all the groups at the conference, our initial plans didn’t look anything like the ones we came up with on the fourth attempt. Our process evolved, and was different every time. Thing is, there were a number of things we were changing as we went. We changed the way we organized the people in our group. We changed the way we handed off the balls. We changed the way we kept track of our counts. And we changed the number of balls we held in our hands for each pass.

It was a really fun exercise, and the convener used it to illustrate a few points. One was that if you just keep doing something the same way, you won’t see change. You may see some marginal efficiency improvements, but that’s it. If our group came up with a plan and kept trying it, we may have gone from 16-25. For significant changes, sometimes you need to re-examine every part of what you are doing, and be willing to try different things. But you can’t do that unless you take the time out to discuss what you are doing among the team.

That’s how we opened the conference. The rest of the day we talked about all sorts of problem solving techniques. I won’t dwell on details, but here were some highlights for me:

There are multiple approaches to doing things. Just because you have “always done something this way” that doesn’t mean it’s the best way.
If your current approach isn’t working, try a new one.
Don’t continue down the same path repeatedly expecting different results.
Sometimes stronger personalities have a way of driving things, but all members of a team can provide value so it’s important to find ways for everyone’s voices to be heard.
When dealing with problems, it can be overwhelming and sometimes not possible to deal with the whole thing at once. If you can find ways to break up problems into smaller pieces, and then focus on one piece at a time, problems become much more manageable.
In a team setting, communication is very important. One of the best things you can do is have continuous checkpoints to see how things are going, and evaluate if the approach you are taking is working/makes sense or if you should try something different.

Continuous Improvement

One of the key topics of the conference was how we should always strive for continuous improvement. Alright, I know it was a business conference. But hey, I like to write about relationships, and I’m kinda neurotic about this stuff. So of course I started connecting this back to the realm of life, and love.

Isn’t continuous improvement a great goal to have in everything in life? It doesn’t matter what you are doing – shouldn’t you always want to improve? Should we ever really say “ah, that’s good enough” if we know something can be better?

If you enjoy golf, aren’t you always trying to improve your game in order to have a better score. Even if it’s just casual fun, there’s satisfaction in seeing improvement. If you enjoy cooking, isn’t there value in trying new things. You may try some recipes and end up hating them. But you might love the next one. Look at parenting. For the sake of your kids as well as your own sanity, there’s value in learning different approaches and techniques that you can use. Heck, even if it’s something you hate (say, scrubbing toilets) – getting better or at least more efficient at it means you can get it done faster.

If you’ve ever heard of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs isn’t that what self actualization is about? Being the best person that you can be? I’m not content with just being a good toilet scrubber – I want to be the best toilet scrubber I can be!!!

Improvement in Relationships

The goal of continuous improvement also applies in relationships, and it shouldn’t even matter what state your relationship is in. Some relationships need a lot of work. Others don’t really seem like they need work, but that doesn’t mean they can’t be better.

If you are truly committed to someone, shouldn’t you want to have the best life together possible? If there are things you can do to improve the relationship, then you are making life better for both you and your spouse. And all the same points from the above apply.

A buddy and I once joked that relationships should have the equivalent of checkpoints or performance reviews, where you have an opportunity reflect on how you are doing and set some goals together. I actually think that it’s a great idea, I’m just not sure how exactly you go about doing it. When the idea came up, we talked about it being something you do on your anniversary. The point that was made in the conference was that once a year isn’t enough. For continuous improvement, this should be part of your everyday life. If you see areas you can change and improve, do it. Don’t wait.

Making Changes

Some of the biggest areas for conflict in relationships are how you spend time together, splitting of household duties, parenting, sexuality and finances. As a couple, take a look at those areas and talk about them. In every area there are probably things that you think you are doing well, and other things you think you could improve on.

Pick a topic (splitting of household duties for example), and individually put together a list of the things you think you are doing well, and the areas you can improve. Then compare notes. Doing it individually and then sharing prevents the more dominant personality from saying things like “Yeah, of course we are doing a great job of splitting household chores. Now hurry up and finish vacuuming – you’re blocking the TV”, while the less dominant personality says “yes dear”. By comparing notes both voices can be heard. Ideally you both see the same strengths and weaknesses, but you may also find that some of the things you think are going well are things your spouse thinks you can improve on. Isn’t that good to get out in the open?

For things that you want to improve on, try different things. Try something for a while, and if it’s still not working try something new. Don’t be scared of change. Just because you’ve always done something a certain way, doesn’t mean you have to continue doing it that way. Let’s face it, even if something used to work, if it’s no longer working you can’t hold onto it.

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results – Albert Einstein

If your relationship is in a fairly distressed state, then sometimes the issues can seem overwhelming. By focusing on one item and trying to make improvements to that first, you can make gradual changes to your relationship. Start with something small and manageable – not the major conflict points. Dealing with the smaller issues can increase the overall satisfaction in the relationship, while showing that larger changes can be successful.

People Change

One thing that’s easy to lose sight of is people change, and situations change. I’m not the same person I was 20 years ago. Why would I expect my wife to be? For any long term relationship, you need to be willing to grow together, and re-learn each other again and again as the years go by. And hopefully you continue to fall in love with each other again and again as you both change.

Here’s a scenario from my life (which shows that yeah, guys can be dumb). When my wife and I started a family, my wife stayed home with the kids. We came up with a way of dividing the household chores that seemed to make sense for us. After a number of years, my kids were in school full time and my wife started working again. But guess what? For a while, I expected our division of labor to continue as it had. It wasn’t a conscious expectation, but I was set in my habits of the chores that I had been doing for the past few years. I didn’t take into account that suddenly my wife had less time available, but for some reason I was expecting her to do all the things that she had been doing before. Our situation had changed, so we needed to change our approach. These sorts of things happen all the time.

Communication is Key

It doesn’t matter how good or bad your relationship is at the moment, there is always room for it to get better. Perfection doesn’t exist, but continuous improvement is a goal we should all be striving towards. To do that, you have to be committed to your spouse and your relationship, and be willing to communicate. Increasing your understanding of each other and being willing to put your spouse’s needs at the same level as your own is key to a lifetime of happiness.

3Jun2014

Why get married? Well, everyone else is doing it

Posted in Life, Love, Marriage, Relationships by zombiedrew2

Why do we get married? Why do we date? According to evolutionary theory dating and courting is simply a way to try to find a mate for sex so that we can advance the species. And from what some of my single female friends have told me, that does seems to be the driving focus of many of the guys they meet (just without the whole “advancement of the species” side of it). Lots of “hi, I’m Bob, and I brought you a flower. Soooooo… sex now?” type experiences.

I would like to think that guys aren’t all like that though. I mean, yeah, I’m not going to deny we think about sex (frequently perhaps). But hopefully there’s a lot more going on in the guys head and it isn’t their primary motivator. Alright fine, maybe it is their primary motivator. But hopefully it’s not their only one. Sigh, guess we can’t fight evolution.

In any case, I don’t think sex is the primary thing. I think what we are actually looking for is connection. Everyone wants to feel valued, cared for, and desired. And we also want to value, care for and desire someone else.

Different Lifestyles

Looking around as an adult, I see a handful of different lifestyle choices:

Single and on your own.
Single, but dating.
In a relationship, but living separately
In a relationship and living together
Married

There are also a couple of other options, like being in multiple casual relationships at once, and married or living together but with relationships on the side, but I would like to think that those are exceptions (though they are likely much more prevalent then I would care to admit).

Lets looks at the first few a bit more closely

Single and on your own

Here someone is single, and not looking for any sort of relationship. There are a bunch of things that can cause this. The person may be anti-social. They may have been in a relationship and been hurt, and need time to recover. They may also believe that they will never find anyone, so they don’t even try. Sometimes these people are actually happy on their own. But I suspect many have convinced themselves they are on their own because that’s what they want, but in reality there is a part of them that wishes they could find someone, but they are scared to open their heart and be rejected.

Single, but dating.

This would apply to both people who are single but looking for casual hookups and people who are dating in the hopes of finding something that could develop into something more serious. When people talk about “settling down”, I think it’s the change of the mindset that dating is just for casual fun to a mindset that dating has a goal of finding a relationship that could become serious.

In a relationship but living separately

Often this is the next step after single but dating. You’ve found someone while dating and it seems to be developing into something more. At this point you are “exclusive” to each other, which may be either spoken or just assumed. But you still live separately, so to see each other you need to plan it. Relationships can stay in this stage for a long time and never develop into anything more.

Married or Living Together

Legally, living together is treated the same as marriage, so what is the difference? I think the difference between living together and marriage is largely symbolic. By getting married you are publicly affirming your commitment to one another. But the ritual of marriage isn’t really needed. You can be just as committed without it. So although I acknowledge that living together and being married are somewhat different, I’m going to treat them the same here.

Why get Married?

Why do we get married? If you are married, try to think back. Why did you get married? If you were the one who proposed, what made you propose? If you accepted a proposal, why did you?

Easy question right? Chances are it was because of something along the lines of “well, we love each other and wanted to spend the rest of our lives together”. Or I suppose it may have been “we got pregnant” and daddy was starting to load his shotgun. Then there are people who are tired of the dating scene, and figure it is time to “settle down”.

Actually there’s a good chance you didn’t even really think about it – it just seemed like the right thing to do. The logical “next step in your relationship” if you will. Influencing your decision was likely some combination of a romanticized notion of a future together, and a need to conform to societal and familial pressures.

In many cases, people get married simply because that’s what you do (same for having kids actually, but that’s another topic for another day). You hit a certain age, and your peer group starts getting married. Some people do it because it’s what they want, other do it just so they don’t feel left behind.

Relationship vs. Marriage

Thinking of marriage as just a logical next step in a committed relationship is a bit of a mistake. Marriage is much more than that, and this is the part that I don’t think people really understand until they are in it. A relationship is just about the two of you, while a marriage is a partnership, and there is more to it than just the relationship bits (same as living together, which is why I’ve grouped them together).

In a marriage you have to run a household, which involves managing finances and the division of chores. If you decide to have children, you take on the role of a parent – taking time away from being a couple as well as a potential for conflict if you don’t agree on child rearing. You have to start thinking about the future, and balancing planning for the future with enjoying the present. These different roles can conflict, and get in the way of the relationship bits.

It’s kind of like being a parent. It’s great to have a friendly relationship with your kids. But there are times that being the parent can conflict with being the friend. I have periodic battles with my children, where they tell me things like “I hate you”, and “you’re the worst daddy in the world”. Once they’ve cooled off a bit I’ll often say something like “sometimes when you think I’m being mean, it’s because I’m doing what I think is best for you, even though you might not like it.”

Similarly, what’s best for the marriage isn’t always what’s best for the relationship. Marriage (like much of life) is a balancing act. You need to balance the different roles you play. Being an individual and part of a couple. Planning the future with living for today.

One key difference is that before you had to make plans to see each other. Even if all you did was get together to watch TV, it was an event. Now, you see each other all the time. If you aren’t careful this can lead to a loss of individuality. I’ve got a buddy in a relationship, and he and his girlfriend have been talking about marriage and moving in together. One of his concerns was how it would affect his “me” time. It’s a common trap to think that now that you are together you need to do everything together. It’s still important to maintain your individuality and to do all the things you were doing before. But now you have to take into account the other person a bit more.

Have you ever heard stories of great friends who go into business together, and the business relationship ruins the friendship? The same thing can happen in a marriage. Having a strong friendship or being passionate lovers is no guarantee that you will be able to be successful in marriage.

Are Marriage and Passion Incompatible?

In a prior post I talked about how the nature of love changes over time. The early stages are more lust then love, and there are physiological reasons behind changing feelings.

If you look up quotes about marriage, many of them are jokes about how your sex life dies after marriage. Like any generalization or stereotype, there is a grain of truth behind that. It may be natural to have this happen to a degree, but that doesn’t mean it has to happen.

When it does, I don’t think the marriage is to blame. You initially come together as friends and lovers (not necessarily in that order). But in marriages and any long term relationships you become more. You take on all these other roles, and those other roles can get in the way of the things that initially brought you together.

Here’s a quote I like:

Getting divorced just because you don’t love a man is almost as silly as getting married just because you do. – Zsa Zsa Gabor

The cynical way to look at this quote is to say it suggest marriages are doomed to suffer an erosion of love, and I think a lot of people believe that. But I see that quote as a reminder that marriage is about more than just love. It’s about commitment. You don’t get married just because you love each other. You get married because you are committing to that other person. As it says in most vows, in good times and in bad. There will be bad, and you need more than just love to get you through.

The Beauty of Marriage

It’s possible that this comes across sounding like I’m disillusioned by marriage. Far from it. I still believe in the institution, and I think it’s a great thing. But I’ve learned that it’s not an easy road, and you need commitment to really get through.

To me one of the powerful things about marriage is you become more than just a person. You are more than a “me”, you are part of an “us”. For that to be successful, you need to be able to put your spouses needs at the same level as your own.

I read something recently where it talked about focusing on the positives in your relationship instead of the negatives. This makes a lot of sense to me. Look at a newspaper. It’s the negative, and the sensational that makes the news. The news isn’t full of the good things that happen in peoples lives. Pick up a history book. It’s full of wars and battles. The significant or memorable events are often the negative ones. It’s very easy to let some bad moments in your relationship override the good ones. The article suggested trying to figure out your top five moments as a couple (to you personally), and maybe sharing that with your spouse.

As I looked at my top 5 moments, some of them were obvious – the wedding day, the birth of our children, and a trip together. But I was a bit surprised to find that one of my top 5 moments wasn’t even “my” moment. In my top 5 was a situation where I helped my wife achieve one of her personal goals, and cross something off her bucket list. It was something I was unable to do with her due to school at the time (though I would have loved to), but I knew it was important to her so I pushed her to do it and I supported her in it. To me, being able to do that made me feel as close and connected to her as any moment that we were able to spend together.

It wasn’t about “me”. It was about her, and the enjoyment I received in supporting her in something she really wanted.

Another important thing is the history you build together. I’ve never understood the concept of falling out of love. When you look at the life experiences you share with someone over a long term relationship, how can you beat that? Looking at my life and the things we’ve gone through, supporting each other through life events both happy and sad. Bringing our children into the world together. People talk about desire fading, and that’s another thing I don’t understand. Yeah, we age. And our bodies change. But those changes are a roadmap of your experiences together, and you were together for every one of them.

No, I don’t understand falling out of love. Even when times are hard, it’s important to continued to fall in love again and again as the years go by.

Remember What Brought You Together

For anyone in a relationship, regardless of it how happy or distressed it is, here’s one thing to remember. When you first came together, it was as friends and lovers. Never let that fade.

Life gets busy. Jobs get in the way, houses get in the way, kids get in the way. There are always “things” that can get in the way, but you need to make time for each other. You need to make time to laugh together, and love one another. Things don’t just happen on their own. If you don’t make the time, before to long you will find that a long time has passed, and connection has started to break down.

Long term relationships don’t have to mean the erosion of love. If you’ve let that spark fade or die, as long as you are willing to make each other a priority again, you CAN find it again. Look at the positives in your life, and try to let go of the negatives.

To quote Chris Martin of Coldplay (who sadly wrote these lyrics as his own marriage was failing):

Call it magic, call it true
I call it magic when I’m with you
And I just got broken, broken into two
Still I call it magic, when I’m next to you

And if you were to ask me
After all that we’ve been through
Still believe in magic?
Oh yes I do
Of course I do

23May2014

Great Expectations in Love

Posted in Communication, Communication Issues, Life, Love, Marriage, Relationships by zombiedrew2

In the posts I’ve made so far my focus has been on what causes relationships to break down. I don’t want to dwell on the negative, but understanding what we are doing wrong can help us understand how to be better. That’s how we learn. Make mistakes, try and figure out what we did, and do it differently the next time.

After spending a lot of time reading and thinking about this, I think I’ve figured out the largest cause of relationship breakdown. Are you ready for it? Alright, here we go…

Go get a mirror, and look into it? Do you see the problem? No? Maybe look a little harder.

Your biggest problem is yourself!!!

Before you start throwing things at me (virtually of course) let me explain this one a bit. This isn’t really a bad thing. Well, kinda, but it’s also natural and I suspect unavoidable. We all unwittingly sabotage our own relationship to varying degrees, and often we don’t even realize we are doing it.

How do we do this? I’m glad you asked. We do this through our expectations of what life and love should look like. In his book Love is Never Enough, Aaron Beck talks about these expectations as “shoulds”. We have an idea of what our idealized life “should” look like. When we act a certain way, we believe that our spouse “should” respond in a certain way.

Here’s why I think this is so subversive. This happens at a subconscious level, and often we aren’t even aware of it. We often can’t even articulate what things “should” look like, we don’t know what our expectations really are. But we sure know when those expectations aren’t being met.

We learn from what we see

In my first post, I talked about how for much of life and relationships we stumble about just figuring things out on our own. There is no class we take in school on relationships. Children don’t come with instruction manuals. When relationships start to falter, there is no handle with a sign that says “pull in case of emergency” (though how cool would that be. Mind you even they did exist where would you put it?).

When I said that there was no class on relationships that wasn’t entirely true. I’ve realized we do get a class on relationships, and it’s called our parents.

*** cue awkward pause ***

Think about this for a moment. How do we learn about relationships? Where do we get our concept of what a relationship “should” look like? It may happen at a subconscious level, but for regular interpersonal interactions we learn from what we see. And for many people the relationship we see modeled with the greatest frequency during our developmental years is that of our parents. This becomes our view of normal, and sets our expectations on what a relationship “should” look like.

Yeah, I’m sure some of you are now squirming, thinking something along the lines of “ewwww” or “Noooooo, my eyes, my eyes!!!” Maybe you are saying “my parents had a terrible relationship”.

When you’ve had bad experiences modeled to you, these may be things that you consciously try to avoid in your own relationships. We pick and choose the things that we saw that we liked, and try to exclude the things we didn’t. I’m not sure how well that actually works though. Look at cycles of abuse. You would think having terrible experiences as a child would make you do anything in your power to prevent that from happening in your life. But many studies have shown that being abused is often a strong predictor for future abuse. Cycles repeat. We tend to do what we know.

During our developmental years we are always observing and learning from what we see. It doesn’t matter how abnormal or dysfunctional our model may be – we are still learning. Just as some schools have better teachers than others, some models of relationships are better than others. What we learn may not always be great, and we are just as likely to pick up bad habits are we are good ones.

Our model of a relationship isn’t always from parents though. If you grew up in a single parent home maybe your model of a stable relationship was someone else; grandparents, or the parents of a close friend. Heck, maybe part of it came from watching The Cosby Show, or Rosanne on TV. It’s different for different people, and is probably even a collage of different influences. But chances are there was *something* you saw modeled in your childhood years that formed much of the basis for what a relationship “should” look like to you. And chances are you didn’t even realize it was happening.

What does this mean to me?

So we learn from what we see? Alright, if you can accept that, then what does that have to do with us subconsciously undermining our own relationships?

Here’s where I think we get ourselves in trouble:

We all have our own expectations, our own ideas of what life, love and personal interactions should look like. And we subconsciously judge things based on how well they meet those “shoulds”. These can be small or large. From my spouse should greet me in the morning with a hug and a kiss; to my spouse (usually wife for this one) should stay at home with the kids when/if we start a family.

Well guess what? Our spouses have their own “shoulds” as well, but their life experiences are different and their influences are different. So their “shoulds” are probably different as well. And where the “shoulds” don’t line up, one or both parties are bound to be disappointed.

If one spouse is expecting the other to stay home with the kids, but the other spouse plans on going the daycare route, you’ve got potential for trouble.

Your way isn’t necessarily the only way

Here’s an example from my own life. It involved a minor conflict between my parents and I, but it was the same collision of “shoulds” that I’m talking about.

While growing up, my family celebrated birthdays with the immediate family (parents and siblings), as well as a handful of friends. For my wifes family, birthdays included a much larger extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc).

When my kids started having birthday, we went with the extended family approach. In some ways it was a blended approach I suppose, as I continued to invite parents and siblings while my wifes extended family was included. We did this for years. One day one of my parents made a comment something along the lines of the way we were doing birthday parties wasn’t what a kids party “should” look like – it was more of an adult party.

You know, I love my parents. They’re great. They are pretty open minded and understanding. But at that moment they were judging the way we chose to do things through their own lens of what a kids birthday party “should” look like. This was a collision between how my side of the family thought birthdays “should” look and how my wife’s side of the family “should” look. Who says what a kids party should look like? No one, we define that for ourselves.

If you run into conflict on your expectations try to remember that life isn’t like math – there is no right answer. When it comes to conflicting expectations between couples there is no right and wrong (well maybe in extreme cases, but for the most part our expectations are just differences). Be open minded. Try to understand your spouse. And be open to the idea that just because you’ve always expected something “should” be a certain way, that doesn’t mean it has to be that way.

Two common “Shoulds”

Here are two common “shoulds” that seem to cause conflict in couples. Read almost any relationship book, and you will see some variation of these.

I shouldn’t have to tell you what I want, you should know.

There’s this romanticized notion that when two people are really in sync, they just know each other. The idea that one person can start a sentence and the other person can finish it. And I do think there is some truth to this. I’m not sure if it’s a matter of being in sync, or if it’s a matter of being around a person long enough that you get to know them and how they respond to things, and therefore you can often predict their behavior. As for being in sync, it may be that both your “shoulds” and the other persons “shoulds” just line up really well.

The thing is, people are different. No one is exactly the same. Often in relationships there are many elements of our characters that are similar and that gives us common ground. But there are also differences, and those differences are a big part of what draws us together. When we talk of people complementing each other, or the idea of the whole being greater than the sum of the parts, we are talking about differences.

I’m not sure about you, but I can’t read minds. I’ve talked to a number of friends, both male and female, and none of them can read minds either. Well, one buddy claims he can but I’m pretty sure he’s crazy. For the people that are close to me, I can often predict how they will respond to situations. I can often make guesses as to the things they like and don’t. But guess what? Sometimes I’m wrong. And the better I know the person the more accurate I usually am.

So in response to “I shouldn’t have to tell you what I want, you should know”, I say no, I shouldn’t. Sometimes your spouse will know what you want and other times they will have some pretty good guesses. But if you *really* want something, it’s best to just tell them.

The other big one is:

We shouldn’t have to work on our relationship. If you need to work on things it’s not true love.

You know, I’m not even sure where to begin on this one. But I’m pretty sure I can blame Disney for this. Why do people not accept that relationships require work? Most wedding vows have some variation of “in good times and in bad”. Most people will acknowledge that everyone has good days and bad days. Also, think of anything that you’ve done. Chances are pretty good that the first time you did something was worse than the tenth, or twentieth. We get better at things over time. So yeah, you probably will need to work on things occasionally. You need to find out what you are doing wrong before you can improve on it.

It seems to me there are two choices. Say “hmm, my relationship has ran into trouble so it’s not true love”, and then move on to another one. Or try to find out what’s going wrong with the relationship you are in and see if you can improve it. If you walk away any time things get difficult, chances are you will go through a lot of relationships in search of the perfect one. You may also work on your current one and find out that no, this isn’t going to work. But you may also find ways to make your bond stronger.

Side note – In defense of Disney, they ARE getting better in their messaging. Movies like Enchanted, Mulan and even Frozen have done a lot to change up the old “princess is rescued by handsome prince and they live happily ever after” story line. But I digress. Anyhow…

What can you do?

As I said earlier, chances are we don’t know what our expectations really are. We only know that we are disappointed when those expectations aren’t being met. So a really important thing to do is try to understand ourselves and identify these expectations.

Take some time and think about some concepts in a relationship and what they mean to you. What do you want your relationship to look like? What does it mean to you to love someone and be loved? How do you express affection and how do you expect it to be expressed to you. What do you actually want from your relationship?

Major areas for conflict in relationships are how you spend time together, splitting of household duties, parenting, sexuality and finances. In all of these areas you probably have some “shoulds” that may conflict with your spouses.

All those things that are happening at a subconscious level. Think about times you have been disappointed or hurt. What happened, or didn’t happen? Try articulating why you were disappointed and what you expected. Try figuring out the specifics of what you think your relationship should look like (it’s largely that exercise that led me to writing this blog). My assertion is that before we can understand each other we need to understand ourselves. And I can guarantee that’s not an easy thing.

Once you have identified your own personal “shoulds”, ask yourself why is that the case? Why “should” you expect something to be a certain way? Are they really absolutes, or is there room for change? If your answer on why you expect something to be a certain way is just “because that’s how it’s supposed to be”, then maybe you need to re-examine that one. Most shoulds are actually wants, and some of them have no real basis beyond “that’s the way I learned something”.

You are a role model

As I got thinking about this I realized that if my parents were the primary model for what I believed a relationship “should” look like, then that means I’m a model for my own kids (hmm, kind of a scary thought sometimes). This brought two things to mind:

Don’t hide natural parts of a relationship. Relationships are full of ups and downs, good times and bad. As parents I think it’s natural to try and shield our children from the negative sides of things. For example, many people try not to ever fight when the kids are around. I get the sentiment, and will admit to doing that myself. But I question if we are maybe doing more harm than good when we do this. Fighting happens. I’m not saying show the kids everything, but maybe let them see that conflict and more importantly dealing with conflict is a natural part of life. Just because mommy and daddy argue doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. As an adult I’m trying to learn how to deal with conflict now, and it’s not easy.
Don’t ever stay just for the kids. I hear of couples who have let the spark die (and I use the word “let” intentionally, because I think that’s a decision), but they stay in the marriage so the kids have a stable home life. C’mon, what exactly are you giving the kids? What sort of life are you modeling to them? Do you really want your kids growing up in a cold environment where mommy and daddy never interact, never touch and don’t tell each other they love each other? Sorry, I think that’s probably doing more harm than good over the long term. Kids learn from what they see. Either put the effort in to make things work, or don’t and move on.

Change is hard

There’s a saying, you can’t teach an old dog new tricks. You can, it’s just not easy. It can be difficult to unlearn years of learned behavior and expectation. Let’s say you’ve been able to identify some of your shoulds, and you have come to realize that they don’t necessarily have to be that way. Even then, in the heat of the moment when your “shoulds” are violated your default reaction will be one of hurt and disappointment. Be aware of that. Everything in life requires practice. There are all sorts of theories on how long it takes to form a habit. I don’t think there’s any real magic time or magic number. But the point is, things get easier over time.

13May2014

Free Agency

Posted in Life, Love, Relationships by zombiedrew2

Well it’s that time of year again. Football is over, while Hockey and Basketball playoffs are underway (leaving many a spouse feeling abandoned). Baseball is just getting started, but for many players it’s time to start thinking about free agency.

I have something of a love-hate relationship with the concept of free agency. I’m not really sure when it happened, but free agency seems to have shifted the balance of power in sports, from the owners to the players (at least for the super-elite players). I question if that is really a good thing?

In some ways, yeah, for sure. Players no longer are stuck in their contracts. They are more in control of their own destinies and aren’t “property” of the owners the way they once were. Although that seems like a positive, the sports landscape is littered with players who either on their own or through the advice of their agents, have made some TERRIBLE decisions – damaging not only their own careers but also the fates of their teams in the process.

As a fan I have seen teams that looked like they were on the verge of becoming something great fall apart due to free agency. So often teams fall apart before achieving the potential that was clearly there. Often free agency plays a big role. In a world of salary caps and outrageous salaries it seems harder than ever to keep a good team together.

In an earlier post, I talked about how in sports the team goal is usually winning. Players want to win too, but they also have their own individual goals. And success usually is best achieved when a coach is able to have the players achieve some of their individual goals in pursuit of the team goal.

When free agency looms, a player has a lot of things to consider. How happy are they on the team? How happy are they with their role on the team and the future outlook of the team? Do they thing they could achieve more on a different team? Win more? Land a larger contract (giving them more financial security)?

I think there are four main attitudes that players have when looking at free agency. There is some overlap between these, but here are the approaches that I see:

Four Attitudes in Free Agency

1 – The Journeyman
These people are just happy to be employed. Give them a role on a team, and they will do their best to fill it. They tend to be specialists, going from team to team filling a specific need, but never sticking in one place for very long. These guys tend to have short term deals.

2 – The Stat Padder
These are the hedonists of the sports world. Yeah, they wanna win. But they are just as happy to lose as long as they “get theirs”. These are the guys who have to be reminded that “there is no I in team”. These guys look at themselves and their needs first and foremost. They either don’t understand the financial side of a team, or they don’t care. They will do things like push for the maximum dollar contract, and then complain about how a team is built later if it’s not winning – when often their own contract is the biggest thing that has limited the abilities of management to put a team around them.

3 – The Lifer
Almost the opposite of the stat padder, for these guys the name on the front of the jersey is more important than the name on the back. The team, its culture and their legacy with the team is the priority. These are the guys who can often be seen accepting deals at less than market value so that the team will have additional money to sign players. These guys still want to win, and care about their own contributions to the team. But when times are rough it’s just part of the process.

4 – The Ring Chaser
This is something commonly seen near the end of a career. A player may have been a journeyman, stat padder or (less commonly) a lifer. At some point they realize the end is near and they just want a chance at a title. They don’t necessarily care what their role is – rotation player, bench warmer, towel waver, it doesn’t matter.

No Guarantees in Life
A player’s outlook going into free agency will impact their decisions, but one thing history has shown is that there are no guarantees. Sometimes players land deals, and you just know it isn’t going to work out. Other times players go to teams that look like a perfect fit, but for some reason or another it doesn’t work out. Maybe someone gets injured, or the chemisty is bad. Sometimes players find success, but not to the level they expected. And other times you get matches that don’t make sense at all, but somehow they just work.

In relationships all the same things apply. Marriage is a form of contract. It’s different from sports ones perhaps given that there is no pay and no expiry date. With no end date, people don’t become free agents in the same way. But even in the happiest of relationships I would guess people periodically take stock of their lives and question whether the path they are on is still the one that they want.
You can question things at any time, but often midlife is a time where people look at the decisions they have made and question if they made the right ones or not, and if what they want their life to look like moving forward. When that happens, the same attitudes I mentioned above apply.

Personally, I don’t understand the stat padder. In the world of relationships, I think these people are probably the “players” (in relationship terms, not sports terms. Hmmm, this is getting confusing). If your relationship is all about you, and your focus is your own happiness and doing what’s best for you, then I question what the point is. To me that’s not a relationship. I’ve always been more of a lifer. In sports terms, I see something special in the idea of being someone who plays their whole career for a single team and gets their jersey retired at the end.
It all comes down to the team though, and I suppose how you measure success. If the team is doing it’s best to win, and management is doing it’s best then that’s all you can ask for. There are many great, great players who had fabulous careers but never won a title. To me that doesn’t diminish the accomplishments they had.

In sports you also see cases where a player has been with an organization for a long time, and you get the sense that they would like to finish out their career there. But then something happens. Maybe management decides to go in a different direction. Maybe their teammates stop playing a team game and start taking a selfish approach to the sport. Lots of things can happen. In those cases, I don’t blame a player for testing the free agent waters. There may be other teams out there that are now better fits for them, both in terms of philosophy and personnel.

Everyone is in a different situation, and what it right for one person isn’t necessarily right for the other. If you are at a stage where you aren’t sure about your relationship, the only advice I can give anyone is:

Be honest with yourself, and know your worth

Ultimately you need to be happy with yourself and the decisions that you make. I believe many relationships fail unnecessarily. When that happens, it’s often because someone overvalued themselves and thier contributions to a relationship and undervalued thier partner and the things they provide.

As I said earlier though, there are no guarantees. Sometimes people make a move and it works out well for them. Other times it doesn’t. And like the sports world, the relationship landscape is littered with people who made a move, only to find themselves regretting it later. You never know what the future will bring. You can’t ever control outcomes. But as long as you can look at yourself in the mirror at the end of the day and say “I did the best with what I had”, that’s all you can ask.

3Apr2014

That’s what Happiness is!!!

Posted in Happiness, Life, Marriage, Relationships by zombiedrew2

Happiness. We all want to be “happy”, and much of our lives is spent in pursuit of happiness. But happiness can be elusive, or temporary. One of the leading causes of relationship break down is because one or both parties aren’t “happy”.

Defining Happiness

Happiness seems like a pretty important concept to understand, so what exactly is it? Where to start? Well, how about the dictionary. Since I don’t have one I’ll rely on good old Google.

Merriam-Webster defines happiness as:

A state of well-being and contentment
A pleasurable or satisfying experience

Let’s look at point b) first. If happiness is a pleasurable or satisfying experience, then it is a point in time event or activity. A good meal can be pleasurable or satisfying. So it was enjoyable, but did it make you happy? Sex can/should be pleasurable, and hopefully it’s satisfying. But does it make someone happy? Not necessarily. In fact it can make people unhappy, especially if they have regrets about doing it later. I would argue that sex can only cause happiness when it is done with someone you love. At that point it transcends the physical act and becomes both an emotional and spiritual connection (but that’s a topic for another day).

Looking at b), I would argue that it is not a suitable definition of happiness. A particular experience or action may be enjoyable, but it doesn’t necessarily lead to happiness. If I’m generally miserable, I have my doubts that satisfying meals can make me happy.

Now let’s look at point a), happiness is a state of well-being and contentment. This makes a lot more sense to me as it seems to speak to a person’s general take on life. What is your state? Are you a happy person or not? If you are a happy person, does that mean you are always happy? I would argue no. Everyone has good days and bad days. And even looking at a point in time slice of life, I think you can be happy about certain parts of your life without being happy about everything.

This makes me think of a sign I saw recently. I don’t recall the exact words, but it’s something like:

Happiness does not mean everything is perfect
It means you are willing to look beyond the imperfections

I’ve given that one some thought, and I don’t think it’s quite right. Depending on the scale of those imperfections it might not be realistic to look past them. For example, I don’t think anyone can or should “look beyond” things like abuse. So I’ve reworded it slightly:

Happiness does not mean everything is perfect
It means you are willing to look beyond the imperfections you can live with
And you are willing to try and resolve the ones you cannot

This concept of happiness links back to happiness as a state. It doesn’t mean things are perfect, but there is contentment with your current state.

Let’s look at another source. Wikipedia says happiness is:

“a mental or emotional state of well-being characterized by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.”

“Happiness is a fuzzy concept and can mean many things to many people. Part of the challenge of a science of happiness is to identify different concepts of happiness, and where applicable, split them into their components.”

Wikipedia also views at happiness as a state. I like the fact that it refers to happiness as a fuzzy concept, because it is a difficult concept to define. How do you know if you are happy? How can you pinpoint it? And if you are happy, why are you happy? What causes you to be happy vs. being unhappy? How do you achieve this state?

I looked around a bit and found a pretty interesting article full of quotes from various people on what makes up happiness. At the end of the article the author says that happiness is a decision, that requires actions on our part. Some of my favorite quotes are:

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
Mahatma Gandhi

Happiness is different from pleasure. Happiness has something to do with struggling and enduring and accomplishing.
George Sheehan

Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude.
Denis Waitley

My Take on Happiness

Here’s what I think…

Happiness is an outlook, and it’s a conscious decision. We as individuals decide if we want to be happy. We decide how we want to view our lives, and we control the actions that lead to our own happiness. There are definitely outside influences that affect our ability to make these decisions. And events can occur that can impact our happiness (such as accidents, illness etc). But we are responsible for our own happiness.

I think of myself as a fairly happy person. If that’s true what is it that makes me happy? What are my sources of happiness?

First off (and most importantly), it comes from within. I’m not sure when, or how, but I have chosen to view the world through an optimistic lens. I believe that things will work out somehow. Even in difficult times I believe that I will get through things. Why do I believe that? I think that comes from self-confidence. I can look at myself in the mirror, and I am largely content with who I am, the things I have accomplished, and the potential for the future. As the sign I saw says, it doesn’t mean everything is perfect. There is lots of room for improvement and growth. But as a general state, I am content with my life.

My life isn’t exactly working out the way I expected at the moment, but that’s alright. I know I will get through this, and I know that I will still be able to have a happy future. I believe in myself and the decisions I have made. Adversity is an opportunity for learning and growth. Happiness comes from the decisions and actions that you make.

Thinking of everything above, here is my definition of happiness:

Happiness is a state of mind. It comes from a personal sense of fulfillment or accomplishment. It can be impacted by outside events, but it is something that largely comes from within. It results from a person’s decisions, and the actions they have taken.
In order to be happy, you have to be happy with yourself, and for that to happen you must have a strong sense of self-worth and identity.
No one is “always” happy, but to be a happy person you must have a positive outlook on the world. You must focus on what you do have, instead of what you don’t. You must be willing to overlook imperfections where possible, and be willing to work to improve on the things you cannot overlook.

Alright, I’ll admit that doesn’t exactly roll off the tongue; and you won’t see it as a t-shirt slogan anytime soon. But hey, happiness is a complicated thing!!!

Happiness in Relationships

So now we’ve got my take on happiness. But how does that tie into relationships? Why do people find themselves “unhappy” in their relationships? From what we looked at above, happiness is a state of mind and it comes from within. A problem couples can get into is when they expect their spouse to make them happy. You need to be happy with who you are before you can be happy with someone else. Think of all the musicians and actors who looked like they had everything (wealth, fame, beauty) only to end up throwing everything away, or worse, dead through suicide or drug overdoses. My guess, these weren’t happy people.

A while back I came across the following quote, and I think it sums up a lot of where relationships break down.

Generally, people give up too easily on relationships. They expect the relationship to make them happy as opposed to them making themselves happy. A good relationship takes a lot of work. The only person that could ultimately make you happy is you.

If you are someone who is unhappy with where your life is at the moment, here’s something to think about. Perfection is an ideal that can not be attained. Nothing is perfect. No person is perfect and no relationship is perfect. But I’ll guess if you take a good look at yourself you will see that you have a lot to be thankful for. Take a look at your relationship and look at what is good about it, not at what is missing. Focus on the positives and allow yourself to appreciate what you have around you. If you can do that you will find your overall level of happiness will increase. Fix your own outlook on life and not only will the negatives in your life not seem so bad, but they will also be easier to approach and try to improve.

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